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Saturday, October 30, 2010

at the crossroad

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1.Catherine Zeta-Jones… 2.Paula Abdul
3.Billy Ray Cyrus 4.Camille Grammer
5.College Scholarships  6.Harrison Ford  7.Chupacabra 8.New Cars

9.Retirement (kinda odd that this would be here today...read on...)

10.Boeing 757 Hole

     One common thread in all this bloggering is how I view the world...oh wait this is my blog so of course it is all about me and the Dreamality I live.  "Oh ho oh-oh-oh you can say that I'm a dreamer" (Imagine: John Lennon) Actually the common thread is life. And life is all about perspective or,  Dreamspective.
     I admit that I often rant and occasionally (fairly certain) there are some things that may cause some feathers to be ruffled and piss some people off, (although I really do not know if i pissed someone off, cuz no one ever tells me so i will assume that i have..) but that is how the cookie crumbles.... 

i generally look at the glass half full, but sometimes i drink the koolaid and realize that it is less than half full...but what ever... except when it comes to certain drinks..armageddon-is-just-around-corner


      So as we all motor down the road of life we hit the occasional road block...we stumble and fall...and we get back up again... we keep on keepin on and then we come to a crossroad. Decisions have to be made...We gather facts and sort out the best course. sometimes feeling are hurt...sometimes a tie is severed..It would be great if Sheila could navigate the road of life and tell me where to go...Oh wait, I have my wife to do that for me...
 
i am at the crossroads...and the path is all but decided...unless...  
    
     I prefer my crossroads to be of the four way stop variety. A tee stop is even better...However, it is not always what we want that we get... sometimes our crossroads are more like traffic circles, AKA, 'round-a-bouts. Most people do not understand the 'round-a-bout. Most people when approaching a 'round-a-bout approach with trepidation. Some people ride in the 'round-a-bout for a few laps, some on  a PermanentPredictamentPath, and some zoo-zazz thru without a care... me I'm a zoo-zazzer...

In Hooterville MI, there is a four-way stop...
the people there have a very difficult...
no...scratch that... 
IMPOSSIBLE time figure out the 4way rules...
for fun we should turn it into a 'round-a-bout!!!
    
      I am a Sagittarius. I exude Dreamality...I love to fly by the seat of my pants. I have a devil may care attitude, and usually approach the crossroads as if the GLARING stop sign were more of a suggestion than a command. Damn the torpedoes or whatever else may be in the water. Well, except for sharks. I am still kinda afraid of sharks...oh yeah and those little fish that swim up your peter when your peein' in the Amazon River...ewwwewwwweew!!!

Oh, free spirit nature... that has never got you into any kind of trouble has it Brucie my boy.

     I do not always think of the possible outcomes. When I decide to step of the cliff it is with both feet. Caution is not my middle name. Except when it comes to work. Then I am cautious. I do not want to ever do a job that stiffles my creative side or cages the wild animal instincts. I love my freedom...I love my Dreamality...(not to be confused with wave/particle duality...Jus' Sayin')
     I have had great days and good days and okay days and bad days and a few VERY BAD days, but most days are okay. Most days I enjoy or at least do not hate my job. The construction trades has, (except for the end of 2005...then.Not.SO.Much...) for the most part treated me well. 
      there are good days and happy times and celebration. there are issues and crisis and disasters and .... i get thru it...what other choice do we have? life or death there is no other choice...you live until you die...as my father used to say...

bad days generally do not kill you, but bad decisions can and sometimes do...
but rarely in my experience..
i am at the crossroads... i have to make a decision...

    I have met some great people in my years in the trades. I have had some great customers and a few aliens, but whatever. I do not not love the job anymore. It is kinda like a marriage after the kids are gone. One day you look at each other and ask, "Who the f- are you?" The polish and freshness has long been replaced with lines and age spots. The joy replaced with trepidation and dread. i do not hate it...i do not love it...i just roll with it...(and write about it as a catharsis)

There is always room for growth  and people do change...

     The years have rolled by and the body aches all day instead of just at the end of the hard days...I feel like I never recover...(and before all you HealthNutWannaBe's start telling me it is my hot dog and Nicotine addiction, i know that is part of it) Yeah, I like the excuse to drink heavily and take a Vicodin or two, but seriously, I would prefer to wake up without a fifteen to twenty minute HotPadMassage. I am not asking for your pity. I came to a crossroad years ago and made my own choice to do what I do.

i have heard from a bunch of people that i need more exersize...
yeah and lugging a toilet up and down the stairs as well as boxes of tile, equipment, materials and supplies and tool bags...that is just a warm-up...funny how the people i hear this from sit at a desk all day.. 
    
     I sit here at another crossroad. I have been in construction for 20 years. It is what I do. It has been that way for so long I do not remember the other life I had before...the restaurant years are a dim memory... I have learned a lot. I have seen a lot. I have been a construction guy, (nearly half my life) for so long, it defines me.

is that how you want to be rmemebered or defined, Bruce?
IDK...

    My wife's cousin was a commencement speaker a few years back for the High School they both attended. I listened closely to what he said. Well, that may be a lie. I was in the room and I stared intently, but I absorbed very little. The gist of what he told those fresh faced grads was, "Choose a profession that you are passionate about." Sage advice. It, however has been a long time since I had any passion for my job.

i stare down the crossroads...in my youth, before kids and responsibility...
ok even after kids and responsibility...i would just go where my heart led me.
i would follow my DreamDuJour...the JADIP Dreamality...
livin in a van...livin on the SeaMonkey...
rollin the dice...

   Looks like I am outta work... The company I work for is going to close. It is not a shock. I have know this day would come for a while now...I refused to let it sink in... However, today as I write this I feel the shock. It is strange. It feels... 

i am standing at the crossroad and i do not want to look neither right nor left.
i do not want to go back the way i came...cuz you can never go back..i am not sure i want to travel on ahead...
i stand a the crossroads...

     I stare blankly. I do not recognize this feeling...I do not understand this ambivalence. I do not see the path. I do not see the dream. My dreamality is screeching to a halt and that kinda sucks...

at this point i am out of touch with my Dreamality and I am unsure.



guess bruce needs you to keep on clickin' and so do i
we dun gud on our first round, but
still more pppies to save and
bruce is gonna need to blog to keep
me fed...
love you guys
TuckMonster

Friday, October 29, 2010

that's it i'm outta here...

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1.Laura Prepon  2.Jack Nicholson  3.Maura Kelly  
4.Lisa Blount ( i dated a girl named Lisa Blount...i wonder if this is the same girl?)
5.Nissan Cars  6.Daylight Savings time (already?)
7.Rachel Dratch  8.BlackBerry Bold 9.Cloud Computing
10.North Korea Border
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     THAT'S IT I'M OUTTA HERE!!! I think we have all been here...just so fed up with all the bs that we want to run screaming to the hills...or where ever we are not at that particular moment...

when running away one must remember to watch out for obstacles...be a careful RunAwayer!!! its all fun and games til someone gets and eye poked out with a taquito...

     I am standing on this particular precipice far more often than not, but I keep the insanity in check by repeating my mantra daily.....Just Another Day In Paradise .....Just Another Day In Paradise.....Just Another Day In Paradise... and thinking what ever does not kill me only makes me stronger and a whole slew of other cliche's that make my mind numb to the mundane BS associated with the remodel hell, er, uh, I mean world...
    A few days ago, as I was putting the final coats of lipstick on the  you can put lipstick on a pig  job and leave for the day knowing that I still had a few this-n-thats left to do, the alien asked me if I could fix the laundry faucet...I smiled my best smile and said "Sure, but I won't be able to get to that today, but I can get it tomorrow." Inside my head I was screaming, "THAT'S IT I'M OUTTA HERE!!!"(see also make french toast)
     I was pulling up the carpet protector on the stairs that were covered with the rattiest, CatPissedOn run of red shag that I have ever seen...or smelled...there is something inherently evil about the smell of stale CatPiss and it refused to come up. like it was CarpetBorged to the stink. as the sweat dripped from my unibrow, I cursed under my breath...that's is I'm outta here...but i stayed to finish the day. why would they have wanted carpet protector on that crappy chunk of worn down stink infused turd. Well, it was red, the favorite color of lipstick for a pig!
    I think I may have finished up the job from hell with a couple of aliens that seem to want me to be there FOREVER...I am hoping the phone does not ring  and I do not have to go back...but if they do call, (it did  actually...they need me to go out and install one $.39 (cent) duplex outlet cover) I will say nicely, "Sure. I can come over and do what ever you need to have me do. and chase whatever imagined flaw you see While actually I am screaming, over all the other voices (i hear voices) in my head... "THAT'S IT I'M OUTTA HERE!!!"


and thinking.....
over and over and over again...

please keep clicking...
if you are not clicking puppies will die...
thanks
signed,
TuckMonster!!

thematic photography 121 yellow

CAUTION: work zone...


i
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i
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of   not
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for more cool pics visit http://writteninc.blogspot.com/
this guy, Carmi, does it right, not like my goofy dad...
signed,
TuckMonster!!!





Thursday, October 28, 2010

the best check

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1.Anna Nicole Smith  2.Auto Recalls  3.Ozzy Osbourne 4.Aretha Franklin 5.Elvira

6.Audrina Patridge 7.Sasha Vujacic 8.Financial Aid 9.ARC Tunnel

10.Mortgage Rates

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today started out too early...i felt a cloud of uneasiness in the air...it must have been gas...
i did not stop believing...something felt a bit different..

    i had acouple other blog ideas in mind for today. i thought i would unleash a rant, with election day so close at hand...i have been working on CrossRoads for a couple days, so I thought mebbe today...i did not think that this one would be for a couple more weeks, but hey that BlogMuse...she is fickle and she will decide what i am doing and when...kinda like Sheila the girl in my GPS
     I have written a lot of checks in my adult life. I guess the adult part is not really neccesssary, as I wrote no checks a child. But whatever...lots of checks...and very few bouncers...I am happy for that because it gets really expensive to bounce a check...but you all know how i feel about the banks...bankstardization  
     One day not so long ago, (June 22, 2010) I decided to donate some (yes it is half) of my ad revenue to the Safe Haven Humane Society...I wrote the blog....do something. It has been a long push. i thought about giving up...i thought about retracting the offer...i thought about taking a little trip to the keys... I have pleaded and cajoled and begged and whined.    
     Way back before I lost everything in the debacle of 2005, I was somewhat sucessful. For a brief period, I actually made a bunch of cash. All good things and all bad things come to an end, irrelevant of what we wish. No one gets outta here alive and we cannot take cash to the other side. BTW...I have heard that the other side accepts Visa, because it is everywhere you want to be, but AmEx...not so much...
     As I was saying lots of checks... (at one point I had two businesses and 12 different checking accounts...)WTF dude??? I am not bragging, so do not get the wrong idea, but I even wrote myself a check for $135,000.00. Once. I cashed it into $1.00 bills and threw it on the living room floor and rolled around in it...well not really silly...
     I did deposit the check into an account in my name to seed another venture... Again, I am not saying this to brag....but I am saying it was fun. (and yes it did clear, because it may be felonious to write a check of that amount that you cannot cover... but suffice it to say, I did not serve time for that check...)
     It was a great feeling to write a check to myself and deposit it and know it was good... (and BTW I did not serve time for any other CheckRelatedMalfeasance.) I felt I was sucessful. I felt I had arrived...and boy did I! yeah. not. so. much...Then begin the downard spiral that is brought on by pride...it was fun, and not fun...a hell of a ride...but looking back it all seemed kinda shallow...
     Don't get me wrong, losing it all really sucked. I will never be the same. but life is filled with change good bad and indifferent...I would like to say that with all hardship comes growth. IDK...in my case I think i did grow a bit...The best lesson I can take from this fiasco is it is just stuff...and I did not die...
     However, up until now that large check is the best check I have ever written. The check that I will write to SHHS for $50.00 from this little blog is far superior in every way. The accomplishment is not as shallow as writing that one to myself. This is a small step in doing something good and just. It is following thru with a pledge. It is a nice deposit in the karma bank.
     I am not feeling proud at this moment, but very humble. extremely humble. And thankful. VERY thankful. I am not experiencing this moment alone. I have you, the faithful followers and readers of my semi-quasi-daily-ish trip thru the everyday world to share this with... 
     In the grand scheme of things this is a very small thing, but in my world, where I actually live, this is huge!!! I am so very greatful to each and everyone of you that has taken the time to click thru for a cause!!!
       And now I thank you!!! I have a bunch of friends that say they are clicking. I check the stats and find that the number one ClickThruCommunity is not my home town. it is not GR, MI...WTF?(but Jim and CB, i know y'all are clikin'... )
But the most of my fan base is here...
     It turns out that Albany NY seems to be the HOTBED of thruclicking...whoever you (or youse guys and gals) are in Albany, thank you veryVERY!!! much...
     On this day10/28/2010 at approximately  7:30 am (or that is when I found out) we cracked the $100.00 dollar barrior. THE BEST CHECK!!!

facimile not the actual check BTW...I write just a bit more legible than this!!!
and actual amount may be slightly over fitty bucks...

so here we are....
TuckMonster says thanks!!
i have written a lot of checks...some are really hard to write. the one to the IRS...well that just blows....this check, is a thing of beauty...humbled and flabergasted, i can't wait to mail it out!!!


hey... we are not done yet!!! it took us 9 months to do it the first time..
lets see if we can get the next check out before Christmas!!!
keep clicking!!!
signed TuckMonster

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

top ten things im happy about...

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WTF...miniskirt ban dropped off the earth??

1.Jessica Simpson 2.Denise Richards 3.Top Gun 2  4.WWE  5.Checking Accounts

6.PlayStation Phone  7.Eva Longori  8.Three Gorges Dam 9.Cable TV

10.Pension Plans...again with the pension plans...

~~top ten happy thoughts~~
in no particular order, that sounds like prioritizing and a lot of work...
1. Tucker AKA the TuckMonster...He has helped heal my heart from the loss of 'Cino and 'Spresso..
2. It has not snowed here yet! and the sun is out today!!!
3. My family both immediate and expanded...right now there are no issues...but like the weather is can and does change...oops spoke to soon...condolenses to my wife, her sister and her family...sorry for the loss of Steve's father...
4. My Friend VoHo, looks like he is gonna live and time will tell how much or lack there of paralysis there will be...he may even be able to go back to his home on the river...
5. I have been blessed with a bunch of bloggering ideas lately and some of them are actually good..well, mebbe, but only you can tell...and prevent forest fires...
6. The WINGS...Hockey On!!! lots of hockey left!!! and they seem to be doing pretty good...
7. I have some beer and whiskey...So I have that going for me...and the LIONS were on the bye week so they did not lose!!!
8. I have been blessed with some great friends...even those that refuse to read my blog...and I picked up a couple great new followers that even have something to say when I post...for a while I thought I was just writng this for no one but my friend Jim, who I see nearly every week and is prolly sick of my shtick...
9. I am very close to hitting the goal of $100.00 and getting paid for the first time from GoogleAdSense, and that means I can send off the first of many checks to the Safe Haven Humane Society in Ionia, MI and this will be my best month yet as far as page hits not by me....gonna go over 400 hits for a month for the first time!!!!
10.  I am alive!!!!

great job clicking thru readers of this blog!!!mebbe we will hit our goal before the end of the month...
signed,

the TuckMonster!!!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

fortune cookies and beer...

TRENDING NOW!!!!TRENDING NOW!!!!

1.Miniskirt Ban (second day on the top of the trend...mebbe I should check this out???)


2.Nicki Minaj  3.Selita Ebanks 4.Jenna Von Oy 5.Bonds 6.Mariah Carey

7.Drew Lachey 8.Scariest Movies

9.Severe Weather (today they closed schools because of storms and wind...Uberpussies!)

10.Credit Check



way back during the mildly famous days
i wrote a song about a fortune cookie and NOT surprisingly called it fortune cookie...
(the pic below is not the original fortune but a copy that my son received (in a separate cookie years after the original...kinda cool huh?)and gave to me as a christmas present...i love it!!!...i think the original is around somewhere, but who really knows...)

the fortune from that song was this...

i have tried to make this my creedo and the thusly the JADIP ideal was formed...


now more recently....
this is an actual fortune i received from  a lunch with my mother at First Wok....
i take this fortune is a mandate for me to keep on writing my blog....
Jus' Sayin'....
(BTW i lied about the beer....)






hey Albany New York! you guys are leading the PACK on the click thrus!!!
thanks for your support!!!
signed,
TuckMonster

Monday, October 25, 2010

when the SockPuppets come out...

    TRENDING NOW!!!!TRENDING NOW!!!!
1.Miniskirt Ban  c'mom? seriously?

2.7.5 Quake 3.Randy Quaid Asylum  4.Jenna Von Oy 5.Mortgage Lenders  6.Chelsea Handler 7.Superman: Earth
8.Cameron Diaz     sweet!!
9.Gwyneth Paltrow doubly sweet!!
10.Drug Testing

  My wife is not a heavy drinker. She has been drunk-and-stupid-wasted only three times since I have known her...And just so you know it was not the night that I proposed to her...she was sober that night...i think...
     I, on the other hand, am no stranger to the porcelain bus...as frequent readers know, I have been OverServed on a few or so occasions... My wife is a very responsible drinker. And as much as I give her crap about it , I truly respect that among many other traits my wife exhibits. I really do not tell her enough what a good person she is. (note to self: tell her in person )
     Before she gets drunk, but not drunk-and-stupid-wasted she has the SockPuppet phase. When the SockPuppets come out we know she is HappyBuzzed. I am not sure if she takes her socks off her feet to use as sock puppets, but the socks come from somewhere. I know my wife keeps an odd hodge-podge in her purse, which is a bag that is usually toooo large to be a carry-on for flying, and she could keep them in there. Sometimes, although I have not documented this well at all, the SockPuppets drop some pearls...
    They may just appear, ghost-like as well. There are some strange goings on in the world, and the SockPuppets could make the jump from the SockPuppet Dimension, or what I believe to be the 8th dimmension, for those of you that are ScienceMinded, which BTW is the dimension that is somewhere between this world and the alternate reality where I am King Of the World...
     It is usually a good warning sign, for me to stop drinking and SoberUpPeople when I see the SockPuppets, if we are out at a party or some such social occasion away from the WereBloggerCastle. I should heed the sign...I usually do not...Jus' Sayin'...
    The SockPuppets usually converse between themselves. Sometimes they talk to the group. Most times they just prattle on about nonsense. The trouble with nonsense, not unlike this blog, is there are often times pearls of wisdom in what is said. And funny stuff as well. But mostly a bunch of sillly things that their alter-ego, Roxy would not say if she were stone -cold -sober. She is reserved and polite in most social gatherings. Almost too polite, but consider the source of this opinion.
    I am usually not reserved and say the wrong thing at the wrong time. I found out recently that a friend is REALLY pissed at me, but I do not have ANY clue as to why...NONE...but I must have said something...at this point if you cannot tell me, then who-the-f-cares...       I am usually not the one to drive us home, as I am not as composed and responsible about sober driving.
     However, since the VoHo accident (http://www.bruceejohnsonjadip.blogspot.voho-can-you-hear-me.html/) I have been much more cognizant of the need to drive sober...However, cognizant does not translate to actionable as easy as one would think...
    My wife has plenty of reasons to be angry with me. I have made some REALLY stupid decisions in my life. Some of them could have resulted in a knife in my chest while I was sleeping...Factually, that would prolly also cure that snoring issue. I think snoring has something to do with breathing, but since I burned all my physiology notes about three lifetimes ago, I have no way to check this for sure...
     We can all find the bad in people. People are irritating... It is much easier to spot than the good.  I struggle to find the good in some people. We all do. HOWEVER, irritation is what creates a pearl, a thing of beauty, in an oyster, so it can't be all that bad.
     Recently my wife said, "Sometimes you are just a vague memory in the background of my life" I guess I could be offended, but one of the things I love about her is her brutal honesty...We sometimes forget that the others in our life have their own agendas. Our society is very egocentric. I blame the MeGeneration...
    She has said some pretty funny things thru her SockPuppets, but I am remiss as to what they are. I now keep a notepad handy to write down funny stuff, odd stuff and fractured reality stuff to use as fodder for Bloggering...Well, I try to...
    Last night the SockPuppets came out, but they were naked sock puppets. Somewhere between the dimensions they left the socks behind...In my Mind, I scrambled for a note pad, mebbe. No, not so much. The WINGS had Just won on a Datsyukian Goal with 11.4 seconds left in regulation. I was as bit OverServed, and even if I could have written the pithy things that the SockPuppets said, it would prolly not be legible...I do love my wife. I know she can be irritating. As can we all...I never find the SockPuppets irritating...I look forward to their arrival even if they are a rarity. We should all relish the pearls, and look past the irritants...
  
THANKS FOR THE CLICKS!!!SO CLOSE TO GETTING THE MAGIC NUMBER!!!!STILL NEED YOUR HELP!!!

Sunday, October 24, 2010

SO MY DAUGHTER IS DATING…

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1.Brock Lesnar   2.Emma Stone  3.Brandy and Ray J   4.Katy Perry   5.College Grants
6.UFC 121   7.CĂ©line Dion   8.Aung San Suu Kyi  9.Earthquake Supplies   10.Refinancing

     My daughter is dating. I found out officially thru FB…Is it a sad social comment that I find out a milestone like this thru an interweb thingy? IDK…Suffice it to say it is a tad bit unsettling. I see her nearly every day. And yet, I did not find out until I saw it on FB…Am I that out of touch?
yes Bruce you are…
      As a parent I know that I embarrass her…I make it a daily goal… I usually succeed. Well, I really do not make it a daily goal, but I shit happens. I know there is a generation gap. I know we are far apart on many things. Being far apart on many things is not from a lack of love, more so due to the years and experience of a different world.
Riiight…so YOU think
     We eat as a family at least a couple times a week and do the family small talk. I would like the conversations during these meals to have impact and be more insightful, but I accept it for what it is. The world is busy. Our world is busy. We have a whole bunch of things going on. Actually, my daughter has a bunch of social stuff and sporting stuff, me I work and come home. I usually try to figure out what to make for dinner, and do my own little unimportant agendas.
mebbe your priorities are out of whack? Jus’ Sayin’...
     Libby is always texting. It seems like the normal thing. Back when I was young and I got home from high school I did not text, mostly because the technology simply did not exist, but I also rarely called anyone from the old rotary dial phone. Come to think of it the phone, back then, rarely rang. If it did it was a work thing for my father or a social call for my mother…and sometimes it was simply just bad news of some sort. We lived much more isolated back then.
And we only had 4 channels on the B&W…
     We are connected almost ridiculously in this present day TechnoWorld. We can communicate thru the interweb and little hand held communication devices that do everything but make you a cappuccino or butter your toast. It is a bittersweet feeling that we can be so connected, and yet still so far a part.
WTF dude, you want a towel to weep on?
      As the song goes, “I may be lonely, but I am never alone” I, however, am not lonely. I value my solitude. I know the world is full of lonely people. How is it that in a world where you can video conference and twitter that there are still lonely people?
Cuz some people are not fun to be around?
      Her boyfriend stopped by today. They were sitting at the kitchen table. He is a solid guy; a linebacker for the EGR football team. He seems like a nice guy. But then so did I when I showed up at a girlfriends house. Parents loved me. Usually more than the girl I was dating. Whatever…I know the world is full of heartbreak. I know that youth is wasted on youth. I know love is a crazy ride especially at 16. I wish her the best.
but you also know what is on every teenager’s mind don’t you Brucie, my boy…
     She prolly does not know that I will be there for her if this new love goes south. I will be there to be a shoulder and give her a hug and wipe away the tears. I will be there to let her know it will be all right and that the hurt will fade. It always does. She will find love again. At least I am planning on it but you never know.
my shoulders may be gone but they can still cradle her head…my wrists may be CarpleTunneledTunneledCarpled, but they can still wipe away a tear... 
     This could be her love of her life. They could go on to get married and have a family. The odds are stacked against it. I know when I was young and dating I thought every girl I dated was “the ONE!” but I was young and foolish..
Come to think of it you dodged quite a few bullets, by not finding the ONE! so young, and I am sure they would feel the same…
     I know I was involved in my share of heartbreak on both sides of the ball, but mostly the breakee, not the breaker. Back then I was far more sensitive to people’s feelings…Back then I was young and did not know the way the world worked. Foolishly, I thought I knew.
The rose colored glasses I wore were unscratched and unscathed.
     The puzzle of the world is usually missing a piece or two, and we struggle daily to fit it together. We can be sad or we can be happy. We can accept the pieces are missing and or inserted wrong... We can smash them into place in an effort to make it fit. We can also step back and try again with a fresh mind….Or we can give up and walk away.
or drive away…who walks when they can drive?
     I always thought I would handle this differently. I was polite. I did not want to embarrass her.
and I think she is thankful…IDK…
     She did not say anything and I did not ask… There will be plenty more opportunities for me to embarrass her. Mostlikely there will be many more first dates and first times to the house…I am sure of it… I was sensitive…I always thought I would be a sit com dad, and say something really pithy and hilarious. I did not…
mebbe i am maturing...Seriously? yeah, RIIIGHT! 


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