all that googles is not gold...

TRENDING NOW!!!!TRENDING NOW!!!!
1.Lynda Carter (hot) 2.Amber Tamblyn 3.Wendy's Fries (yummy)4.Robert De Niro

5.Junk Bonds 6.21 Jump Street (COOL) 7.Pee-wee Herman 8.Pink
9.Rachel Weisz (hot) 10.Cancer Treatment
what nothing about mortgages?

    I must admit that after I decided to let the TuckMonster take over Tuesdays, I was a little worried that I would not want to blog again. he loves to regale you with stories.i her about it all week long... Well, that is not true. After GoogleBrother SuckerPunched me and turned off my little scam AssSense account, I was ready to call it quits... cuz all that googles is not gold...
     I figured I would finish up the five or so days of drafts I had in the hopper and fold up the circus tent that is this little trip thru GoofyDom that is my blog...but then...quitters never..oh whatever...

     however, i do like the blogs i follow: the bitchy waiter , scotts tip of the day , a fresh start with kalei (Kalei's best friend) , functional kaos (AKA mustang sally) , Carmi , simple dude  , fickle cattle  , and the rest of the fine bloggers on my blog roll.... and that being said i cannot just leave. so i have to have a way to reconcile the demons of this debacle...
     when bad stuff happens we all find different ways to deal with our problems...i am usually happy-go-lucky...but lose your job and your passion in the same week and it can really take a toll on you. i posted that i would move on and get over it, but when i got the e-mail from GoogleBrother that they were unable to re-instate my CashCow AssSense account...well lets just say it was not JADIP...nope it was about as far away from that as possible...it was OverServedObbligerence on  a  shitstick...

     I actually started a third blog written by  Bruce"sEvilTwin but after attempting to become untechtarded long enough (about 2 minutes) to figure out how to do a anonymous blog I gave up...well not quite. I have that first post and I have posted it...i think...again techtarded...I cannot figure out how to unhide it fom my dashboard, but whatever...(actually i can, i am just being facetious)

bruces evil twin is always just lurking in my mind...

     He does not like the Jadip ideal...he likes chaos. he likes to be free...we all have a mr.hyde just waiting to come out. I keep him on a short leash for the daily insanity that he would love to spew forth. Unfortunately he does have a spot in my head and he does occasionally spring forth into the forefront.

     In an effort to keep the EvilTwin from running rampant I have given him an outlet...He will never be nice. He will never be restained. He will always say what I cannot say and still feel like I am writing a blog worthy of the quality followers and friends I have garnered in the last 10 months or so. I made it an adult content site for the language and content.

     So here it is Wednesday and I am still fighting with the desire to leave blogger, for greener grass. So I started a new blog on a different blog host. I do not like the new host as well. I do not like the format. I do not like the layout. and the thing is...theWORST thing is.... the Just Another Day In Paradise name is available over there...where as it was not available with blogger...  

seriously?

that is the worst thing...

man-up and quit being a baby...

    

And then I find out that that GoogleBrother has their fingers in that pie as well. 

google may have a ton of cash...

they may have kicked me...

when i was down..

all that googles is NOT gold...

but now i have a new plan

   

    I do want to move on. I do want to forgive the past. It is tantamount to being healthy and happy to not CARRY the burden of spite, hate and negativity. And that is difficult, when your EvilTwin is constantly dumping vitriol into your head. I know this is not the end of the world. I know no one will die from my AssSense account being closed..

except all those puupies...
      Dreams should die hard. they should fight for their survial, or why even have them. Mebbe I am being stupid or childish, but as long as my EvilTwin is lurking in the dark, dank, dungeons of my mind, I will NOT be able to move on...

unless i give him a place to vent.

     I have that EvilTwin. I will let him out once a week. I will let him have all the bad vibes, and negativity. and mebbe i can really move on...

at least that is what i am telling myself...